weird

well, its 1:02am. i am up. big shock. would rather be doing a number of other things right now than blogging- sleep being in the top three of them. the other two... well, anyways. blogging is almost as good as sleep, yeah, thats the ticket.

so my dear internet, i have had one heck of a day today.
worked at the company that is going up in flames on a daily basis. without going into the gory details, a leader of the company had a temper tantrum today and punched a cube. really grownup if you ask me. then i went to my other part, part, part time job this afternoon. after not working since may, i got a raise. ok, a teeny tiny raise, but there was a review, and a raise. something that HAS NOT HAPPENED AT OTHER COMPANY. i am not bitter. nope not me.
was really quite busy today at the hotel. made some money- always a good thing. sometimes there isnt anything quite as good as manual labor. now, dont get me wrong, i dont want to do it all the time, but sometimes its good to break a sweat- (again, i am going to the gutter- what is wrong with me?). i digress. made some good money, came home, checked my emails.

three potential job opportunities were waiting for me in my email dear internet. three. 1-2-3. holy saints above, i may not become homeless. ok, i know most of you never thought I was going to become homeless, but in my head, there is still a chance that it will happen. or i will need to sell plasma, or my eggs, or something. you just never know.

next thought. i realize that this has become an interesting vehicle in which to speak to my friends. generally, i realize i am speaking to a certain group of people, forgetting that others may be reading it too. that being said, i am not saying ANYTHING that I wouldnt tell my mama. Well, almost anything. If she reads something that she doesnt like, I can always tell her I was drunk when I wrote it and I didnt mean any of it. But, I realized tonight, that I am opening myself WAY up to a lot of people-internet you sure do know a lot about me. and right now thats kind of freaking me out. i realize that I dont have a lot of secrets. there is no mystery. a girl should have some mystery. do i care? i don't know. should i care? i don't know. i guess we all have a little bit of crazy brewing inside of us- i just tend to publish mine for an audience. what i wonder is this- do my musings impact your general perception of me. ok-this is more a multiple part question. 1. if you know me personally- do you feel you know me better because of this piece of net i call my blog? if you know me personally, do you wish that maybe I wouldnt put so much of my life out here. (keeping in mind that i really do not put the super private stuff online). 2. if you only know me via a messageboard- do you enjoy reading about my life, or do you not really care one way or the other.
3. If you found me through blogger- do you feel that this is the right amount of information, or am I starting to be like those other sites that talk about the most banal topics just to fill blog space.

This is what runs through my head at 1:17am.


and finally tomorrow. what a day I have tomorrow. here i thought i was going to have a day of slack, and now I have an interview, a CASA mixer tomorrow night, and a special treat at lunchtime-lunch with some girl friends!!!

Maybe I can figure out my life so that I can just have my hand in a bunch of pies, and just get paid to work on projects. That way I can do CASA, see my friends, work, heck, maybe even get a date in once in a while. Seriously. I have an opportunity to do some marketing for a wireless company. I have an opportunity to do some work for a man that owns a consulting business. What else can I do? What is this I see... is my life actually coming together? HOLY SHIT.

Now thats what I call weird.