dear internet,
it's the 4th of July. this is typically one of my favorite holidays of the year- next to Christmas and Halloween. this year, i'm feeling less than celebratory. not quite sure why. no particular gripe or grief. i am just blah. this weekend has been quiet- for the most part I have been at home. went to a BBQ last night- got to spend some time with friends, and yet I felt somewhat removed from everyone. thats not saying that I ostracized, but i just felt like i was on the perimeter looking in. actually, i was. in the past 3-4 months, i have felt like i am at the outside of all my "groups". everyones lives are progressing forward, and yet, i just am just staying put. friends are buying houses, friends are moving forward in their careers, friends are getting married, having babies, or getting puppies. everywhere there is progress. how have i moved forward? what have i done to push forward. what changes can i make, so that this time next year, I can celebrate. will I be at the same job? will i be in the same home? will i still be single? who knows. what can I control?
yucky post.
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