8/07/2005

1:05 am Sunday Morning on 8/7/2005

Hey y'all. Have spent the entire day at the mall working the fund raiser- total sucess financially, and emotionally. So cool having the kids come up and pick "their" play houses. Was amazing to have my friends come out and help volunteer shifts. All and all a total success. But yet, I sit here tonight at my house, and the only person I have to celebrate this with is some random strangers on the internet. Not quite sure how I feel about that. All day long, I watched as families walked by, as couples stopped to talk about volunteer opportunities, and I was able to tamper down any kind of feelings. Until now. I went to drinks with some friends to celebrate our sucessful day-financially it was a coup, but driving home, I realized I have no one to talk to about this, no one to really talk to about what I have been doing, no one to help me get through the next 8 days of this event. I am not really complaining- I love what I am doing, its just weird that it hit me like this. It would be nice to have someone out there with me- someone that would be there getting into this like I am. Someday.
I look back at my last dating debachle and am trying to figure out what went wrong this time. Was it really a lack of time, or a lack of interest? Was it both? Guess I will never really know.

Oh well, I need to get to bed, so I can do this all over again tomorrow. Every $1,000 dollars we raise provides enough money to train an advocate, and we signed up two new advocates today. Every advocate that we train can help another kid in Travis County. This is my way of trying to build back good karma. One last fund raising plug- if you want to donate go to www.casatravis.org - they do amazing things there.

Good night,

-K